First one ~ 第一个

First day of the year.

My first post of the year.

I know I had been lagging in my posts for a long time as I had found another creative outlet. However, the thought of shutting down my blog just never occurred to me. I know I can save probably about 100 bucks a year if I had shut it down.

But I can’t.

It’s just too much of a part of me. Just like those dusty diaries that I had found in a corner of my shelves. Yes, they are taking up precious space. Yes, I don’t read them anymore. And if I do, I would probably die from laughter over my juvenile antsy writings, striking to rid the world of unfairness.

It would be unfair to say that I had not thought of writing for the past year. There are many instances where I was sitting on the bus when a thought just came to me and I really wanted to blog it down as a record of my life but since the computer is not around, I didn’t do it.

In the end, when I finally get to my desktop at home, sorry, the thought is just gone. The best part is: when I am somewhere inaccessible to computer, that particular little thought would make it a habit to pop right up, sticking out its little tongue and teasing me about not being able to blog about it.

Well, honestly, I could feel my language abilities getting from bad to worse.

I never believed in New Year Resolutions. But I think I would need one now: to write more frequently so that my language abilities would not drop further from worse to worst.

一年的第一天。

我的第一个博文。

我知道自己因为找到了一个新的抒发方式而一直放纵自己,没写博文。不过自己从来没有想过要把这个博客给关了。我知道如果我把它关了,我每年平均能省下大概一百元。

但是我做不到。

它根本就是我的一部分。就象那些被我藏在书橱那布满灰尘角落的旧日记一样。是的,那些日记确实是蛮碍眼的。是的,我已经不再把它们拿出来翻阅了。而如果我真的把它们拿出来一页一页地阅读,我多半会被自己当初的那种自以为是的正义感给笑昏了。

如果说我这一年完全没有想到要写博文,那我绝对是在说谎。有好几次,我在车上想到了一些点子想把它记下来,但是碍于电脑不在,不能记录。

结果,当我回到家,坐在电脑前面时,点子却不见了。最好玩的是:当我在某处,不能用电脑的时候,那点子就会再次出现在我的脑海,似乎在跟我示威一样。

老实说,骗不了任何人,自己也知道我的语言能力越来越糟。

我从来不相信什么新年决议。但是我觉得自己现在需要一个:要多写写,不让自己的语言能力越来越糟。

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